Sunday, December 28, 2008

Another Quiet Moment

On long, cold, lonly nights the pondering usually turns to your family and if you are a mother to your children. This experiance had shown me that we have great kids. I have always known that, but when you do not see them all the time and are not around them all the time it allows you to really appriciate them. They are truly a gift that has been given to me. I think that with Joseph's pregnancy I took it all for granted, it was quick and unexpected. The girls pregnancy was also quick and crazy. But I truly think I took it for granted. Where this whole experiance has taught me that this ability to be a mother is precious and sacred. I did a lot of praying that night, it was a fairly enlightenly night. I guess in some ways it was meant to be.

Another thing that happened during my first stay at the hospital that I guess was meant to be was meeting one of my day nurses. I really liked all of my nurses while I was there. But, this one was wonderful. She was a 67 year old French women who has lived here in Denver for over 30 years. She has been a Labor/Delivery/Parinatle nurse at Rose for about that long as well. She was wonderful, a really special lady. The first night the kids came to see me, she walked in and saw them and then had to excuse herself because she was so emotinal in seeing our family. She was overwhelmed by the spirit that she felt from our family. She said that we just gave off a glow that was special. She just fell in love with the kids and called them all by name each time she saw them. She is a life long Catholic and is very devout in her religion. I know she felt the spirit of a forever family. We decieded to give her the Joy to the World DVD and the family proclaimation and we talked a bit about families the many times she came in to take care of me. Then when I was admitted back, she was my nurse again and she came in and was so excited to see me and gave me a huge hug. It was really sweet. What a great woman. I look forward to seeing her again and showing her the baby. The Lord works in mysterious ways does he not? Who would have thought that would have happened? Well, I guess I did my missionary work for what the month, the year perhaps? It will be a memory that I will always cherish. I guess we all need to have the bitter to know the sweet. We must know the bad to know the good. We all have to walk to long road to Jericho and sometimes we may run into the thieves, but sometimes we may run into the really special people as well. But the only way to figure that out is to walk the road wheather we want to or not.

The next day I was able to go home, but not for long. I made it throught the weekend in bad health and very high unstable blood pressure. So, by Monday I was needing to go back. That process was really crazy made easier by Kevin and Kristie Chadwick who came and picked me and the kids up and then Kevin drove me down to the hospital and Kristie took the kids home until Mike was able to leave work and pick them up. They fed them dinner and took great care of them. This is just not the best time for Mike to take work off it is very busy for him with end of year reviews and a year end audit, so thanks again to the Chadwicks for all thier help that crazy day.

Then I had to go back to the same hospital room and then face the same experiance that I faced before. All the nurses were the same and welcomed me back as if I never left. I just fit right back in the routine. This time though the medicine had been changed and things seem to have calmed down a bit. I was able to leave after the 24 hour test and then have been home ever since. Thanks goodness for that. My restrictions are more than they were before. I cannot drive and have to limit walking and going up and down stairs. This is for real bed rest. But, at least it is not the hospital. At least I have not had a baby yet.

My mom is here for another week and then she leaves on Saturday. She has been here all this past week. It has been nice to have her here. Mike can go to work and not be nervous about me. He can get a lot done and plans to take some PTO time and then FMLA leave after his mom leaves. So, I think that we have a plan in place. This is a relief for all of us. I know that both moms will come now and then Mike and I will do the baby after she is born. The moms are helping now and then after the baby is born, I can start being able to take care of myself and the baby which will be nice.

This past Tuesday I went for an ultra-sound which I will be doing once a week along with a NST as well until the baby is born. They have maxed out the dose of meds that I can take, my OB informed me that I am taking enough blood pressure meds to kill a person. I guess that is supposed to tell me to take it easy. We have a plan in place with the delivery. The plan is that I will deliver sometime during the week of January 9-15. Unless something happens between now and then, that is the plan. Which I guess was always the plan. Two of the doctors have confirmed this as the plan so I feel really good about it happening. I will repeat the 24 hour test beginning tomarrow. I will know more after those results come in when I will deliver. But the test will be done here, don't worry. I had better go for now, next time I write, it will be about Christmas, we had a great time!

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Its quiet for a moment

Hello

I know that it has been a while since I have written anything. It has been an interesting last couple of weeks around our house. The tricky thing is where do I begin? How about the beginning?

I know at my last post I was saying that I was ready for whatever happened next. Well, I guess I thought I was. It is amazing what you can get through when you are going through it. I know that sounds redundent, but I do not know who else to say it.

Two weeks ago tomarrow, my health took a turn. I knew that things were getting bad, I knew where I needed to go I just was not ready to go there. But, as the day wore on, things grew worse. So, we packed our bags and dropped the kids off at our home teachers house for the rest of the evening. Thus beginning a long list of people that have helped us along this road to Jericho that I have been traveling down.

We arrrived at the hospital and were admitted to Labor and Delivery. Then we were told that if the lab work came back abnormal that we had to prepare ourselves for delivery. They set up a consult with the NICU people and then we sat and waited. They was not much said between Mike and I, nothing really. Into the silence, Mike said, I could have any name I wanted. I was not thinking names at the time, but did not respond. He then said, that he knew I wanted Katherine Diane and that was what the name was going to be. I said alright and that was about it.

When the lab work came back alright, I was admitted to the Parinatel unit into my usual room which is 377. I was in this room with the girls and with Joseph. I would have had to read Rose Medical Center the Riot Act if they did not put me there. I think that it helped that I mentioned it to the nurse and she saw to it that I was placed in there. It just happened to be opened at the time. Just so everyone knows, it has tan colored walls with a border of tan colored ivy that spans the top of the walls around the room. Parts of the border by the bathroom door and the window are peeling off a little. This I know because I had time to study the walls in detail.

The first night I received a steriod shot to help mature the lungs. Then I had to begin receiving insulin shots 4 times a day to counter act the steriod shots which throw your glucose levels off. They also had to figure out what to put me on to help get the blood pressure under control. This is kind of a hit or miss thing because they do not know what dose will help, how much to give, ect. That night they offered me an Ambien, but I said no, but then the nurse insisted to help me sleep. But the ironic thing is that can anyone really sleep at a hospital? Is that possible?

The next day, the doctors decieded to place me on new medication and see how I responded. I also got my glucose moniter to begin pricking my finger. I stayed a couple of extra days to see how my body would respond. I received the next dose of the steriod shot. I forgot how much they hurt. I got them with the girls, but I was high on drugs and in pre-term labor so I do not remember. All that needs to be said is that my bottom was sore for about a week after. So, it was another night of Ambien. Which was interupted by lots of contractions and another near delivery moment. For some reason the night nurse had hooked me up to the moniter around 11:00 p.m. and then came in and said, can you feel those contractions that are coming about every 2-3 minuets? I said well it does feel a little tight. So, there we go again. The nurse is getting me into the wheel chair and the resident and nurse are walking quickly down the hall to triage to examine me. At this point, it is almost midnight and it is snowing outside. I say to the nurse, should I call Mike?! She says calmly, well lets just wait and see. I was told yet again I had to prepare myself for delivery if the exam did not go well and if the results turned out abnormal. So, I layed there and then prayed and commited myself into the Lord's hands. It was a very helpless feeling, all I could say is that "Thy will be done." Whatever that may be.

The Lord's will was done and things calmed down. Did I mention, that at that point I was camping, I had not taken a shower and I am sure I smelled just lovely for the exam. Oh well, what are you going to do? The next morning I was wheeled over to Dr. Lindsey's office who is the high risk specialist who I saw with the girls. I was wheeled in and then left in the hall to wait for a moment to see the tech. While waiting there looking and smelling lovely, I noticed a couple leaving one of the exam rooms. She was dressed in a very nice pant suit with a fancy coat and he was dressed in a suit also with a fancy coat. They both looked fresh and clean and cheerful. I have to admit in that current state of affairs I was jealous of her. She looked over at me with an inquisitive look and then she looked away. I am sure I looked beautiful and smelled even better. I wanted to say to her, you are only one step a way from where I am, so you had better be careful. (Just kidding) (Although not really, she would only be seeing him if she was having some problems.)

I had an ultra-sound there at the office and saw the baby really clearly. Her face is really cute and her chin reminds me of Rachel's chin. Those ultra-sounds are crystal clear at that office, it was nice to see the baby. She is doing great and everything there is looking the way it should.

The next day in the hospital was my birthday. I guess the only good thing about having a birthday in the hospital is that everyone you see and talk to wishes you a happy birthday. Every time I ordered a meal, happy birthday. Every doctor I saw, happy birthday. Every nurse, tech, the lady cleaning my room, happy birthday. It was actually pleasent. It was the most times in my whole life that I was wished a happy birthday. The kids came down and we opened presents and then they sang to me. It was sweet. Then Joseph broke my heart when he left and said it was hard to leave me there. You try and be strong and stoic. You try to put on a happy face, but it is difficult when carrying a heavy burden. When you face the uncertainty of the furture. When you face another long, cold, lonely night all alone. Needless to say, I broke down later that night. It was very emotional for me. On long cold nights you begin to think. It is more like pondering really.

Sorry kids and Mike are back, I will write more later and also put on some new pictures soon.

Monday, December 1, 2008

The completion of a great weekend

Well, the grandparents and girls made it back from the hotel in one piece all having a great time. Juliana woke up several times because she kept loosing her covers. But Rachel helped comfort her until my mom went over to cover her up. How cute is that? My mom said that she would hear Rachel say to Juliana, don't worry, Grandma will be here soon. So sweet! They all had a great breakfast and then got ready and came over.

When they got here we were able to get all the Christmas decorations out and the tree up and decorated. So, I feel really good about that. The kids love doing that, they get so excited. They put all the ornaments in one spot, so mom and I had to fix the tree just a bit. But, it is done and that is a releif. Mom was also able to make us one more freezer meal so we are set with some great meals in the freezer. Thanks so much mom!

Sadly they had to leave a little sooner than planned. Thier original flight was delayed an hour and a half so they decided to fly stand by on the eailer flight that was on time. So, they left and got back to Vegas without a hitch. It was hard to see them go, but everyone seemed to have a great time.

After they left and we got back I got a phone call from the other councelor that I work with in primary and she had the stomac flu, poor thing I felt really bad. So, that left just me manning all the controls for primary on Sunday. She was supposed to do sharing time and I was to conduct. The other two were traveling back that day from Utah. So, I called our music leader and she was able to do an extended singing time at the very last minute, thank goodness. She did great! I had called the bishopric councelor about the keys to the closet and then come to find out that he planned to help me out for both hours that day. So Mike and the other concelor were my primary buddies and it was great. It was nice to know that I was not all alone. It was a little busy but worked out well as do most church things. None of the kids seemed to even notice that things were a little off, so that was good.

I had another doctor's appointment this morning. It actually went alright. I am still on both medications and they are making me very tired. Everyday things and chores are becoming more and more difficult for me. I am glad that I have made arrangments for someone to come in and help. I have asked my sister-in-laws sister to come and help with the cleaning and maybe some babysitting. My sister-in-law set it up. Her sister is fairly new to the area and looking for a little extra work. Her and her husband are on the list through social services for adoption so she does not want to commit to a full time job. So, she is going to come over here and help me a little and we will pay her of course. But, I think it will work out well for both of us. She sounds really nice on the phone, and eager to help.

I am now in the pattern of going once a week to the doctor as I will begin the non-stress tests this next week. What they really need to do is hook me up to my real stress and then I would never pass! But it is important that I go and make sure that we are both fine. The ultra-sound went well last week. The baby is measuring in the 50% for height and weight. She weighs about 2.5 pounds right now. So, she is doing great and looks really cute if I say so myself. If is fun to see them grow and watch them progress. I am very grateful and realived that she is doing well. What a blessing, what a miracle. Many times throughout this process when the numbers have gotten crazy, I have said to myself, oh man I need a miracle. But, I know that the miracle has already occured and that I just need faith to pull me through. I need hope and faith which are sometimes hard to come by when you are facing a daunting task like this. I am grateful for the gospel in my life and for its teachings about the atonement and the Savior. Eventhough this is a heavy burden I know that if I cast it on the Lord that he will help me carry it. It will not go away until it is time for it to go away but it will be bearable.

Well, I am about ready to fall asleep at the computer so I will call it a night.

Saturday, November 29, 2008

Happy Thanksgiving

Yes, I have finally returned. I woke up kind of early this morning and thought I would get on and write a little.

We had a great holiday. My parents have been here since Wednesday which has been dreamy. It is always nice to have your mom here, she just makes everything better. She makes me think that I can get through this trial that I am facing right now. What would I do without her? She is wonderful. My dad is great as well. He has an uncanny ability to entertain all three of my kids my simply talking to them and making them laugh, it is fun to watch. He is so cute with them, they absolutly adore him. They both walk on water in their world. It is so nice to have them here. You get so used to not having family here that when they are here you cherish that time.

My parents always stay at a hotel when they come, so the kids have been "sleeping over" at the Hampton Inn in Parker. Joseph slept over on Wednesday night. He had a great time, though I heard that there was some snoring from Grandpa's camp. That is what my parents consider camping, is staying at some really nice hotels and sleeping in nice cozy beds. Forget this sleeping in tents on the ground, that is not for them or me.

The next morning, the kids and the big boys went swimming at the hotel pool while my mom and I went home to make the dinner. Well, I sat mostly and then mom worked hard to make the meal. They came back from the hotel and then we hung out until the food was ready. We had a great meal and great company. It was fun. The kids loved eating the homemade pies. Pumpkin for my two "J's" and strawberry cream for my Rachel. The big boys seemed to have both types and then watched some football. Mom and I talked and then cleaned up the dishes, it was great. We have lots of leftovers, so that is great as well.

Yesturday was also a big day because we celebrated the girls birthdays. We first tried to go bowling, but the alley was not opened to the public because of the leauges, who knew they bowl the day after Thanksgiving? We came back and mom made some great homemade turkey noodle soup for us, yum! Then we left for the big festivities. We picked up the cake at Sam's and then headed down to Chuck E Cheese. We opened up presents and then sang happy birthday and blew out some candles. Joseph wants me to say that they had some new games there one that has a jackpot that if you hit it you can get 250 tickets, but he only got 5 at a time. But, he seemed to enjoy it. The girls had a great time playing the games and loved thier presents. We then went to Red Robin for dinner. The girls had decieded what they were getting weeks before the big event. They ordered what they wanted and Juliana informed the waiter that she wanted her ice cream sundae as well. I told him lets wait until the end of the meal. They staff came over and sang to the girls, it was loud and the girls did not quite know what to think, afterwords they both told me they liked it. They both took one bite of the ice cream and said they were full. Good thing the big boys had some room left. After the dinner, we went back to the hotel and played some kid games in the lobby until bed time for the kids. Well, mom and I mostly played the games and the boys watched some more football. But everyone had a great time. The girls are still at the hotel for the "sleepover". I have not heard from them, so I am assuming everyone is still in one piece. Could my parents be here all the time? This is dreamy. It is wierd to wake up and not have them here, but they are having the time of thier lives I am sure. They are probably having breakfast right now, I heard something about Fruit Loops and a banana.

That has been our weekend so far, its been great. Happy early birthday to my big girls. They are doing great! I love them so much, along with my Joseph of course. I will put some new pictures soon. My parents leave tonight to fly back and then we all miss them. But, this morning we will put up the tree and that will be fun.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

I have returned to the land of the bloggers. It seems that I cannot go a week without some sort of drama with health and pregnancy. But more about that later. Needless to say it has been busy. I posted the pictures of the kids about Halloween but have not written about it. So, the morning began with us walking up to the school to avoid all the crowds for the parade. We sent Joseph into the school and then waited outside for the parade to begin. The weather was perfect, so nice and warm. I just had a sweat shirt on over my jammies. I was not going to have time to get three kids ready for a parade plus get myself ready. Oh well, I was looking beautiful. I think that the sweat shirt was getting a little tight, I am not sure why! As it is I am "borrowing" Mike's pj pants and shirt just temporarily of course. Oh well, back to the parade. It turned out great. The whole school dresses up and walks around the building twice I guess to max out picture time. Joseph looked great and his teacher was dressed up like a book. He reads to the class every day and right now they are reading alot of the Little books if you remember them from back in the day. I read them and watched the cartoons that went with them. So, he made himself into a Little book and the kids loved it. He has a great teacher, we really like him. This is his 23rd year teaching 3rd grade at Timberline, Joseph seems really happy with him.

I will be back, got to go pick up Joseph from cubs.

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Well, I went to the doctor again today. The pressure is down a little and we are waiting another week to go back in and see where it is then. I will continue to take the dose that I am on right now and hope for the best.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Sorry, you are getting all of this piece meal tonight. But I am back for a moment to write some more.

I just love this time of year, it is so fun for the kids. Joseph has his parade and party at school on Friday. It will be so nice to not have to stand outside and freeze like we have done it years past to watch the parade. The girls will dress up as well. They will parade outside this year around the school. Then Friday night we have our trunck or treat and then treak or treating around the street. The kids are so excited. The girls and I went to the library today for the reading group we go to every week. They were able to dress up and then go trick or treating around the library. They loved it. They only got like five things in thier pumpkins but they seemed really happy with that. They have played with the pumpkins the rest of the day. Juliana who is always wanting to take something to bed for the night insisted that she sleeps with the pumpkin. So that is what she is doing. Rachel informed me eailer that she loves Holloween and she cannot wait to go trick or treating. It is just so much fun, I love it with the kids loving it so much.

I went out for my good friend Melissa's birthday party/book club last night. We all had such a great time. Now that Melissa has moved up north to Federick, we met at the Northfield Stapelton Shopping area. We ate at a really great Mexican place there. I had the chicken enchalads Yummy! We then enjoyed some great desserts. By the time we were done, it was only 8:30, so the only place still opened after 9:00 was Super Target. So, guess where we went? Super Target. None of us wanted to go home yet. So, we "window" shopped at the Target and just kind of hung out there. Four moms hanging out at the Target. It was the happening place. We all had a great time. Happy 30 something to Melissa! We read a great book this month just in case anyone is interested it was called Whisteling in the Dark. I really liked it and recommend it.
Hello

I am back, I had to do dinner and get Joseph off to Cubs. Just your regular busy night. So, about the job, Mike is safe for the time being although they said that there may be more cuts in the future. But we will hope and pray for the best. He is so close to being done with graduate school so we are hoping he can hold out until then. He will be done this August with an MBA from CU Denver. He is not sure what he wants to do career wise, but at least he will have the degree and he will figure it out later what he wants to do.

The other big thing that we have been dealing with is the baby situation. The great news about that is that we were able to find out that it is for sure a girl. I have thought it may be a girl since the last ultra-sound four weeks ago. I just remember with Joseph it was so obvious that it was a boy. With this one, we could not tell, so I thought, maybe a girl. My two boys were so convinced that it was a boy I did not say anything until I knew. But the ultra-sound tech was sure and she has been doing this for a long time. She did Joseph's and the girl's ultra-sounds as well. I trust her when she says girl. So, we are excited. Joseph is disappointed. I told Mike that he is gender biased. He has been totally convinced that every pregnancy will be boys. This one was no exception. When I called to tell him, he said it was a boy and then I said Noooooo, its not. He was a little surprised. We are both really happy with the news. I think that the age difference between the girls and the baby will be perfect. I think that they will be good buddies when the baby gets older. She will be very well dressed when she hits 3T above. She will have plently of clothes to choose from.

The main concern of course is the naming situation. Ever since the Jacobfina incident we have not really discussed the girl names. This morning while Mike was eating breakfast he said that we should name the middle name for the baby Romney because that is what we had discussed with the name Jacob. I said are being for real?! Romney middle name for a girl?! Oh man! I said no, I love my maiden name but not for a girl name. Oh, please help me someone, anyone?! I guess I may have to pull out the name book that is where I found Juliana's name. He said that he wants a list to choose from. So, I guess here is the list I have so far: Katherine (after my grandma) Caroline, or Claire. So we will see. I had no idea that picking a girl name was going to be so difficult. I will keep everyone informed about it, but there is no rush. We have plenty of time before the baby comes.

My health has not been good. On Tuesday I was officially diagnosed with Preeclampsia. I have been on medication for almost a week and the pressure has not been regulated yet. I go back into the doctor tomarrow so they will deciede then whether to raise the dose or not. The medication makes me very tired, I am hoping that it does not have to be raised any more. The side effects of the medication and the complication is that it effects the growth of the baby. So, we are hoping and praying for the best. Just keep us in your prayers.

Well, I have to go pick up Joseph.
Hello

I have returned to the blog world after a brief absence. The last week or so has been very difficult for us and just a little bit crazy!

Late last Wednesday night, Mike came into our room and said that he got an e-mail from the CEO at Janus saying that they were going to cut 10% of thier work force in order to save 15 million over the next fiscal year. They said that it would be a unilateral cut and every department would be effected. Then we had to wait almost a week to find out the results of weather Mike had a job or not. We were greatly blessed and he still has the job. They cut out one of the other accounting departments and laid off several of thier empolyees. They are blending the rest of the department into Mike's in order to save money. Needless to say, we are very releived. But it was a long week and a long weekend not knowing what was going to happen.

Sunday, October 19, 2008

I have a quiet moment on a Sunday afternoon so I thought I would write a little. I serve in the primary presidency in my ward and we had our program today. Yesturday we had our only practice and then a party after. I felt that everything went really well. The practice went good and then everyone loved the party. We had a carnival. The kids went to different stations and did various activities. We had a cupcake walk with hot chocolate to drink. (Eventhough it was 80 degrees outside). We had a fishing booth, face painting, pumpkin making table, and a bean bag toss. Then we ended it with the kids lining up for the limbo. My girls loved the limbo and Juliana was busting some moves out on the dance floor. The kids got nice and messy with the cupcakes/hot chocolate and went away with some fun prizes. They all seemed to have a great time. Mike was roped into helping with the fishing booth, he did great and as usual was a good sport about helping out.

Today was the program. We as a presidency printed out fliers to give out to invite people to come. There were several families who invited people and some who came. The chapel and overflow were very full, we seemed to have a lot of visitors. I noticed that there were lots of grandpas and grandmas there as well. We had a huge turnout. There were over 300 people there. It was a crowd. The kids did great. The music was beautiful. Everyone said their parts. I have to say it went off without a hitch. I think that the other councelor who did the program did a great job and I know she is pleased with how it turned out. It is always nice to get that over with. Then it is another full year until you have to do it again.

Well, I had better go for now.

Thursday, October 2, 2008

About the crazy neighbors. Sorry I got a little distracted with the other information, but I thought that it was important.

To begin to fully understand the extent of the crazy neighbors I must begin my narrative by saying that the complex in which we resided was home to the students for the Denver School of the Blind. The school had a deal with the complex and must have given them a huge group discount because there were hundreds of blind people that lived there. We were were surrounded by seeing inpared people the whole time we lived there. For about the first six months that we lived in the two bedroom after Joseph was born, there was a blind family that lived right above us. I do not think that the father of the family attended school and I know that he did not have a job because he was home all the time. His music was so loud that it shook the walls of our apartment. The sad part was they had two young children who had to endure that. They looked to be about 2 and 3 years old. They hardly ever left the apartment, I think that the father was supposed to taking care of them. It was sad to see that. The father also either took drugs or was a drug dealer because one night around 9:00 a man would not stop knocking on our door. He was dressed in all black and wearing sun glasses. It was very scary and he would not go away. After about an hour of him knocking on our door about every 5 minuets to the point that he was banging on it at the end we had to call the police. He was found hanging out on the first floor and was arrested because he was found with drugs on his person. He claimed he was looking for someone and then realized after talking to the police that he was looking for the apartment right above us. Scary.

Another memorable neighbor was the drunk blind man that abused his seeing eye dog. He moved in right after this other family moved out. It was so sad to see him treat the dog like that. These dogs go through a lot of training and this dog just looked pathetic. He was clearly abused and not well grommed or feed. The man always reeked of alchol and was always yelling swear words at him. I finally called and reported it to the dumb freinds league, the woman that I spoke to there said that several other people had called recently about the same man and they were planning on taking the dog into thier custody. Sad.

Then after he left after six months, then came two women who lived above us. They were actually quite nice and quiet. Which was a relief following a year of loud music and really bad guitar playing from the former neighbors. The peace and quiet was disturbed when one memorable night we were eating dinner and heard the biggest crashing sound known to man. Our door was badly located right at the foot of the stairs so we always heard everyone going up and down them because it was an outdoor complex with concrete steps. So, there was a big crash and we rushed to the door and opened it. Upon opening the door, we found a metal King Soopers cart lying at the foot of the stairs. We then looked up to see our blind neighbor cowering at the top of the stairs. She had brought the cart up the elevator but did not want to walk back to the elevator which sat in the middle of the building so she thought it was a good idea to try and take the full size shopping cart down 15 concrete steps by herself while holding a cane. Needless to say it was very lucky she did not injure herself. Mike then offered to take it down to the elevator and then we called the store and let them know that there was cart for them to pick up. Crazy.

There was also a group that had a deal with the complex that housed people with very special needs. I think that it was kind of an outreach program that allowed disabled people to live alone but under fairly close observation from the people working with the program. It seemed that they were brought food and groceries by the people who worked for them. We had two of the disabled people that lived just below us. This was actually a positive experiance for me, it was neat to be around the people with special needs and sense thier special spirits. It was sad to see the people that worked for the program talk down to them and say bad things to them because I think they thought they could not understand them. It was hard to see that. But I did enjoy having them around they were always very friendly and just loved seeing Joseph. They always make a big deal about how cute he was and want to hold him. Some I would let and some I would not, just depended on who they were. It was a unique experiance. Uplifting.

When I thought I could not take the craziness anymore, and after much grief and lots and lots of fighting, we deicided to begin looking for a better place. This was very difficult for us, Mike did not want to move and I had to move for my sanity. I had to get out of there I was miserable. But, we pushed through and worked to resolve the fights and began looking for a bigger place.

More on that later.

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

I have a few extra moments, so I thought I would write a little more.

I had a really fun girls weekend this past weekend. My three friends and I went up to Estes Park for the night. It was myself, Melissa, Kristie, and Elizabeth. We had a great time. I arranged a sitter because we left around 4:00 that afternoon. Then we drove up north and picked up Melissa who lives in Frederick which is near Longmont. We then made the trip up the mountain into Estes Park which is north west of Denver. Estes sits at the foot of the enterence to Rocky Mountain National Park. It is a fun and beautiful town. We stayed at a hotel just past the main part of town, about a half a block up from that. So we were able to walk everywhere we wanted to go. We enjoyed a great dinner at Moma Roses's that night, I had pesto basil ravioli, it was great. We then got some candy at Safeway and made our way back to the hotel. We just talked and talked and then slept and slept. The next morning we got ready and did a little window shopping and then had a hamburger lunch. We then talked some more and then went on a walk and saw some elk. No trip to Estes would be complete without seeing some elk. We made it back down the mountain in time to go to Melissa's stake center to watch the women's broadcast. It was really great we all enjoyed it. It was a great weekend, very refreshing. I highly recommend it to anyone needing a little break.

I had my 20 week ultra-sound today. Everything looks really good with the baby. All the measurments looked great and all the organs measured where they need to be. The baby was breeched and its legs were crossed therefore I was unable to find out what we were having. It was a bummer, but I am not worried. I will be having an ultra-sound once a month so I will have another one in 4 weeks. I hope to find out then. We have a boy name picked out, so if it is a boy we are ready, if it is a girl we are in trouble. Mike said this morning that if it is a girl we need to name it Jacobfina. I am pretty sure he was kidding, but I informed him that this was not the time to be joking about stuff like that. He needs to suggest a name that I can consider. By the way the boy name we have agreed on is Jacob, so I am pretty sure that is where this Jacobfina is coming from. Then he said later that we should name the baby Rachel or Juliana because he really liked both of those names, I said sorry not an option. Oh help me if it is a girl. I guess I will have to wait another month and then hope for the best with the next test.

My blood pressure is elevated and if it does not go down this week I will have to go on the medication. I will watch it closly and hope for the best with that. Please just keep me in your prayers.

Have to go now, more later about the crazy neighbors.

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Hello

I have an extra moment this afternoon and I thought I would get on and write a little more.

My three year old twins are winding down on thier nap time which is fine, they went a lot longer than Joseph did on his nap time. The hard thing is that your life becomes so used to the nap time that when it ends, it is difficult to adjust to the extra time. What do you do? Let them try to sleep still or just let them stay up? Oh, what to do? The problem is that they are still grumpy and ready for bed at 6:00 p.m. when they do not take a nap. But then they do not sleep in the afternoon. With Mike going to school twice a week and then a study group once a week I am with the kids all day by myself for four out of the five days through the end of the year. Sometimes it is a little overwhelming to think about. But, many people have done it before me so I will figure it out. I know that my mom did the single parent for many years as my dad traveled on a weekly basis when we were growing up. He not only traveled a lot but was gone for his church callings as well. He was gone a whole bunch when I was growing up. So, if my mom can do it I know I can because I learned from the best. It must have been very hard for her but I do not recall her ever complaining about it. She made the best of the situation. She was willing to up and move about every 18 months to 2 years as my dad took promotions and different job opportunuties throughout the country and abroad as well. We never lived around family except when I was very young and living in Arizonia. But that was when I was younger than Joseph. By the time I was eight, we lived far away from family until well forever after that I suppose. I have lived in many places and sometime soon I will write more about that as well.

I beleive I was writing about my time with the library. I loved that time and really miss it. Someday I would like to go back and do that again.

My next section I think that I will write about will be some of the memorable stories reguarding some of our crazy neighbors in the apartment complex. You would not beleive some of the people that we lived near by. I will not tell every story because I am sure that it would take up many volumns, but I will tell some of the better ones.

But I have to go now to pick up Joseph from school, more later.

Monday, September 22, 2008

Hello

Its me again.

I was talking about getting home with Joseph. After my health improved, I quickly adjusted to having the baby around. I really enjoyed it. It was a challenge but a good one. I began to change my attitude about the apartment and that improved my life there. Joseph was a really good baby and an easy kid to take care of. I would put him in the excercise stroller and we would go for long walks around the local parks in the area. He loved being in that stroller and I enjoyed being outside and doing something. We would often meet Mike near where he worked for his lunch hour and eat lunch with him. For the first nine months he worked at Janus he was on the phones and then he was promoted to the Accouting department and has been there ever since. So when he got the promotion, he moved to their Cherry Creek building and that is where we would meet him for lunch. We would meet inside the Cherry Creek mall and I would window shop all the fancy chi, chi stores. It was a fun distration. We would go often. That is when I began to go to the Cherry Creek Branch Library. I would meet Mike and then walk Joseph down to the library. When Joseph was about three months old, I noticed a sign at the library asking for a Saturday morning volenteer. I thought to myself that is perfect, I am up early to do the laundry every Saturday morning. Thus began the next six years of working at the library every Saturday morning. I would work several hourse at first when it was just Joseph. I would do what they call the router list. I would go around and collect all the books on hold and then run them through the computer and then sort them to where they needed to go. Over the years I learned how to do many other things. I would sort, shelve, and cheack out books. I was a librarian just not paid. I loved doing this. I would consider working at the library as a job down the road. I finally stopped every Saturday when we moved out to the house, it just became to far to drive every week. I miss it a lot. I still do volenteer events downtown every year. I am asked to help with the summer used book sale. This past summer, they held it outside in big tents. You have never seen so many books in one place. It truly is amazing. I work at the private, by invitation only party on a Friday night. It is always fun with a great local live band and a nice catered meal. I am also invited to help with the Book Lover's Ball sometimes. They hold that every fall. It is a big formal event that is a fundraiser for the library. I am seen several local celeberties as I cheak people in as they enter. Many of the people attending that event are Denver's rich and elete. They are interesting and many ask why there is not valet parking for the event. I always find that funny because if you have ever been to the downtown library you know that both main enterences are located on the side of the building. There is not street access to either door. You must get out of the car and walk about 1/4 of a block to get to the enterence. One enterence faces Broadway and 13th and the other faces the Art Gallery. So unless you want to drive your fancy Bentley into either of those locations, you would need to park in the parking garage across the street with those of us of the great unwashed. Oh well, that would be nice if your only worry and concern in life was where was the valet? Must be nice. I use the valet service all the time, so I can relate to thier problem. (Just kidding!) Some of the "famous" people that I have met while working there are: Govenor Ritter, Mayor Hinkenloper, Mayor Webb, Lance Armstrong (the biker), local news casters from 7 news, 9 news, and 4 news. It is always a fun filled night. Sometimes I am asked to help with the silent and vocal auction they hold in the early spring. This is also a fundraiser, they sell alot of rare and very pricey books that night. I have to wear special gloves while handling and showing off the books. I am like Vanna White showing off the letters on Wheel of Fortune, just try not to drop the $5,000 book. Do not worry I did not, but it was fun holding it, the book was beautiful.

Well, I had better go for now.

Friday, September 19, 2008

Thanks for the comments from everyone. I will soon figure out how to comment on the comments. Please be patient with me as I am learning.

I placed most of the pictures from our summer trip on the site, I will also figure out how to change the sizes so that the people in the pictures are not all cut off. This is a large learning curve for me. But I feel I am making progress. At least I know how to put the pictures on the computer. It is a miracle.

It has been difficult for me to post anything new because Mike is taking a finicial modeling class at school and takes the computer twice a week all day and night. Then he is on the computer at night when he is home. But, I try to get on it when I can.

Back to my history of Glendale. In case you are wondering why I am writing about it is that it feels good to me to write it down. Living there was not the easiest time for me, I have not really talked about it openly in detail so it feels good. So bear with me as I continue with the story. I was writing about the pregnancy.

As my health worsened, I was told that I had to go on a modified bed rest. This meant that I had to stay at home as much as possible. I begged my docotor to let me go to the library at least to get out once a day. I would go to the downtown library and sit in a cozy corner facing Civic Center Park. I would sit for hours at a time and read a book and gaze out the window. I guess it was not that bad. It was just very lonely. I felt that I did not have any friends and was very unfamiliar with the area. The time went by very slowly.

As things got worse with the blood pressure, I was forced to be induced at the beginning of my 36th week. I went in on a Sunday afternoon and had Joseph the next morning around 9:00 a.m. Because I was so early, the labor was slow and long. It was filled with many serious complications. He was delivered by using the vacuum extration because his heart rate was bottoming out every time I pushed. It was scary. Because of my blood pressure I was placed on a high dose of mag sulfate. This drug is desingned to shut your body down in order to keep you alive during the process on labor. What a high dose does to your body is this: 1) affects your vision to the point that you are almost blind at least the vision is very blurry. 2) Makes your throat and mouth so dry that you cannot speak, but you cannot drink anything because if you drink any liquid your lungs will fill up with fluid and then you will die. 3) It closes off your lung capacity to the point that you must wear an oxygen mask the whole time because you are unable to take deep breaths. 4) Your body and all its muscles are affected so you cannot sit up or move without assistance. Needless to say it is nasty, I had no idea what I was getting myself into. But, I was able to deliver Joseph and hold him very quickly after he was born. They took him away and he spent the week in the nursery as I was recovering from the labor and my blood pressure was returning to normal. Holding him for the first time was a memorable experiance. His head was long because of the vacuum and then I noticed that one of his ears was flat. I thought to myself oh well, I guess he will have a flat ear. Little did I know that by the next day it looked normal I did not realize that little newborns are a little squishy when they first come out. He then yawned and looked so cute I immedietly fell in love with him. He was a cute baby. I did not spend a lot of time with him at first on doctor's orders. He spent most of the time in the nursery and did not sleep in the same room with me until we went home. I spent almost a full week at the hospital recovering. We went in on a Sunday and left that next Saturday afternoon. By the time we got home, there was a message waiting for us from the stake president asking Mike and I to give the opening and closing prayer at stake conference. I called him back and told him that I had just had the baby. He laughed and said that he had called someone else eailer that week when he had not heard from us. Boy did we get off the hook there.

Got to go, more later.

Friday, September 12, 2008

More about Glendale

Hello

Its me again. I was writing about the geese that lived in my apartment complex. They were horrible to live with. I hated everything about them. They pooped everywhere and I mean everywhere. So, when we moved to the "bigger" apartment the management told us that they were replacing the carpet in the new place. I was worried that with the move across the pond that we would track goose poop onto the new carpet. But it worked out alright. The move was quick because we did not have that much stuff. I remember carry my jewlery box and that was about it.

We waited until the move to buy anything for the baby. But, we could postpone it no longer. We had to begin buying things. Have you ever tried to carry a box for a crib up three flights of concrete steps? It was crazy. I suggested to Mike to call someone from the ward to help him carry it, but he would not ask anyone. So in the end, it was him and I who by that time was over seven months pregnant. That was one of the many things I hated about living there. We lived at the top of the concrete stairs. Our door faced the stairs so everyone time someone went up or down you could hear it. It was terrible. Another disadvantage was there was no washer and dryer in the apartment. So, I did all the laundry for us and a brand new baby once a week. I would get up before the sun every Saturday morning and put in 8-9 loads at a time. I would sit in the freezing cold laundry room and wait for the washers to complete the cycle. In the winter it was very cold, there was no heat in the room. I would wear my hat and gloves and sit on the counter and read a book. It was not very fun and I hated it. That was when I began working at the library. I knew I was up early to do the laundry so it made sense for me to work then. More on that later.

As the weeks went by, my health began to become worse and worse. I began to feel light headed and dizzy. It was tough, I did not know what was going on, what was happening. I was placed on a modified bed rest because my blood pressure was getting higher. At this point I had also been told that I had diabetes and had to modifiy my diet. That was a famous story. I was told I needed to see a diabetes doctor and my OB recommended one. We went, and she was the worst doctor I have ever seen. She informed me that I had put on too much weight. I had put on about 20 pounds at 6 months. Then she told me that I needed to loose some weight if possible. I think she forgot that I was pregnant. Then the best part of the story was when she asked me what I liked to snack on. I thought for a moment because I am not a really big snacker to begin with. Then I went with my Romeny roots and said I enjoy eating chips and salsa on occasion. She then suggested that instead of eating the chips, I should eat lettuce and salsa that was a better choice. What an idiot! Needless to say, I did not go back to her. I informed my OB that would moniter by gloucose at home with the pricking and then cut all sugar out of the diet. She seemed fine with it. It worked out alright.

Got to go, more later.

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Hello. Its me again. I have an extra moment. Back to the apartment. We were living there for a couple of weeks and then I began to get a little worried thinking that I was a little late, like over two weeks late if you know what I mean. I was so clueless, I did not know what to do or who to ask. I realized that we had a 24 hour nurse line with our brand new health insurance, in effect the week before. So, I called. The nurse began naming off all the early signs of pregnancy and by that time I had all of them. Oh man, I was freaking out. She suggested that I take an EPT, and I said what was that. She described it to me and then I asked where to buy one. I had no idea what I was doing or what I was getting myself into.

I bought the test and then took it that night. I locked myself into the tiny bathroom and took it. Of course it came positive because at that point I was about 8 weeks pregnant. I then sat on the floor and sobbed, and sobbed, and sobbed. I would not let Mike in, I would not speak to him. I was so stupid. I was so overwhelmed. I did not what to think or what to feel. It was crazy. After the initial surprise, we began to adjust to the idea. That is where the apartment thing comes in. We (or I should say Mike) decieded that it was best that we stay in the complex just get a bigger place. So that is what we did. When I was seven months pregnant we moved into the second apartment across the pond. Our complex was huge. It had 11 buildings seven of which surrounded a large pond that sat in the middle. The problem with the pond was in the winter months there was a large flock of Canadien geese that took up resindence there. For three winters I endured their presence. If you have never had the pleasure of living near a flock of geese let me enlighten you about it at once.

They are loud, they are dirty, they are mean, they are aggresive, and they poop everywhere. This is one of the many reasons why I hated living there.

Got to go, more soon.

Monday, September 8, 2008

It's me again. I had a very busy week last week and I have not gotten on for a while. Thanks for the comments. I will figure out how to do that soon. Be patient with me.

Back to the honeymoon. The only bad part about the honeymoon was that we were hopelessly lost more than we were found. But this was before the GPS came out, but I am not sure if I know how to use them now. Oh well, we had a great time and made it back in one piece.

We lived in Mike's grandparents basement for two weeks before moving to Denver. They live on the north side of town near the University of Utah up on the benches of Salt Lake. They have a beautiful home that overlooks the city. It was nice to stay there and the rent was free so no complaints there. The only drawback was that the two beds that were in the basement were older than dirt. The one mattress his Grandmother proudly told us was the one she was born on. The other one was the one that my father-in-law slept on as a child. These were some old beds. Needless to say, I tried sleeping on the couch the first night, but that was rock hard. So, I slept on the floor the rest of the nights there.

We then packed up our meager belongings and then drove out in a piece of crap car all the way across I-80. I am surprised it made the trip. I lost count how many times the cheak engine light came on. We made it to Denver. We stayed in a rent by the week place until the apartment was ready. My in-laws drove a little U-haul out and helped us move into the small one bedroom apartment which was located in Glendale. Glendale is about two miles east of downtown and was less than a mile from Mike's job at Janus. It was a nice location, but I hated living there. I was miserable. The apartment itself was alright, but the side of town was terrible. The neighborhood and neighbors were scary. I really thought it would be a short term thing living there. Oh was I wrong about that.

Well, I am going to go have a late dinner now, more later.

Paula

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

More about me

Just a little more about me with this next entry. In my profile I was talking about how I got my degrees from college. After gradutation, I applied and was accepted into UNLV's graduate program. I declined going because I decieded to get married instead.

My husband Mike and I were married on June 4, 1999 in the Mount Timpanogos Temple which is south of Salt Lake City, Utah. We had a beautiful wedding complete with a great lunchon in the Navoou Room at the Joseph Smith Memorial Building. Following the lunchon, we had pictures and then went across the lobby of the building to the beautiful Bonneville Room where we had our reception. It was a great day. The weather in the morning and afternoon was cool and rainy, but by the evening it was warm and sunny.

We went on a great honeymoon to southern California. We flew into LAX and then drove to Anaheim and went to Disneyland. We are dorks because we love Disneyland. We then drove down into San Diego and I feel in love with that city. LOVE, LOVE, LOVE. We had a great time there and went to Old Towne and enjoyed some great Mexican food. Then it was off to Sea World and I loved that. I got a huge sunburn on my forehead, but Mike did not seem to mind.

I have to go, more later.

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Hello

I am just trying this out to see how it works, I have been told that I must start a blog so that people can read about it. I need to get on board with all the other bloggers. I like the idea of putting things down and writing about them. I used to keep a journal in high school and college, but I have not done that since I got married. This is a good time to start and then I need to learn how to post pictures of all the kids.

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My name is Paula, I stay home full time with my three children.